I don't know what your financial situation is, but I was going through exactly what you were going through. I hired a tutor. Private tutoring is costly but very beneficial. All of my sessions were conducted over zoom due to the pandemic. If you truly want to be a lawyer do not lose hope. Rooting for you! P.S. you're only 22. Your ambition and work ethic is very impressive. You have a lot to be proud of. I'm 26 and just figuring all of this out!