anyone else dislike abbreviations?

I am trying to figure out if this is a personal problem or if others agree with me. In the recorded lessons, when the stimulus is being read it is drawn out and everything is shortened. but when I try it on my own, while I'm reading it completely disrupts my reading process. I catch myself forgetting where I am at and instead focusing on abbreviations instead of what I am actually reading. so is this just a me problem? and does anyone have suggestions on how to fix this problem?