I'm so sorry you're feeling so frustrated! I'm in a similar situation, and I think your answer boils down to which option you would regret less. You could end up regretting either one: if you apply this cycle, you might find yourself in law school thinking, "I should have waited and retaken because I knew I could do better," and if you wait another year, you might regret not going. You know yourself best so I think you know which internal monologue would be stronger.

My official score is nowhere near my PTs (I took August and I'm planning on taking November). If I'm still not seeing what I want after the next one, I'll probably apply next cycle. What went into that decision was that I have a job I love, so I don't mind staying another year or so; I have a really amazing support system; I'm living at home with my parents (so no rent, yay!); and I have really high standards for myself, so I know I can do really well. Sure, in my perfect world I would have already applied, but for me, I would regret selling myself short more than I would regret waiting another year. Obviously your situation might be different than mine but maybe thinking about things through this framework might help with the decision process.

Another thing to consider: if you know you're going to law school no matter what, why rush it? Moving your goalposts might help ease the anxiety. Also, the days may go by slowly, but the year goes fast. By the time you've retaken and gotten a score you're happy with, it could be next June, and application season would only be a few months away.

Tune out all the external advice, too. This is YOUR journey, so do what you want with it. At the end of the day, you're the one who's going to go to law school and become a lawyer, and no one else can do that for you, so whatever you choose, make sure it's for you and not for anyone else! Let go of the fear of perception as well. Whether you go to a T14 or a T50 doesn't matter as long as you're happy with your decision and confident that this is the path you want to take.

I think one of the main reasons we feel regret is that we put ourselves in situations we didn't want in the first place. If what you want is to apply now, that's your best chance of not regretting anything. But if you know deep down that you want to wait and you apply anyway, you might feel an even deeper regret because you knew it wasn't what you wanted.

Either way, you've got this, and whatever you choose, live with conviction! Best of luck with everything. I'll be rooting for you!

@SMRegalado try to think of it in terms of the basketball example a while back! Being the best basketball player requires you to be able to dribble, therefore: best basketball player --> able to dribble