Hello, everyone. I'm about to get extremely personal but it's no secret for me and I'm looking for honest opinions. Some know that I'm a cancer survivor and those that don't know now! Ha! So has anyone ever heard of "chemo brain" or post-chemotherapy cognitive impairment? If not, let me be the first to tell you that it is real! I have definitely experienced chemo brain and struggle with it often. There are times when I just feel out of sync and I have to stop and think if I'm over doing it or if it's chemo brain rearing its ugly head again. I know that it affects me in my every day life but I've been reluctant to accept that it affects me in my LSAT life. I think this may be due to pride and just wanting to totally erase cancer from my life and move on. I have recently come to grips with saying that chemo brain is affecting my performance on the test and I'm thinking about applying for accommodations. I'm hesitant because I don't truly want to admit that cancer has again interrupted my life and I'm also going back and forth with thinking that accommodations would be "cheating." Also, chemo brain may be viewed as ADD or ADHD is sometimes viewed. I'm not saying that those conditions aren't real because I know that they are, but you know how people kinda give the side eye when those two are mentioned? That's probably how chemo brain would be viewed. I'm also not sure if anyone can put a timeframe on the effects of chemo brain because like cancer, it is different for everyone. Not all cancer patients experience it because it's linked to certain drugs and then not all that took that drug experience it. Anyway, sorry so long but what are your honest opinions on the whole situation? Should I, or should I not apply? What are your thoughts on chemo brain and getting accommodations for it? Is it cheating? Any thoughts and opinions are greatly welcomed. TIA
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Try testing with the extra time and see how it feels vs. normal time. If it's affecting you like you say it is, I'd put in an inquiry to LSAC about it and see what they can grant you. If you really feel like you don't need it, you can always request to cancel your accommodations (though I wouldn't recommend that if you're going based on pride!)
Feel free to PM me with questions.
Best of luck to you!
With that being said, do what you feel is best for you.
Good luck
David
Good luck!!
@"Chipster Study" Thank you! I've known since I was a 4th grader that I would be an attorney so cancer didn't stand a chance! I had no clue there was rehab for chemo brain! Really?! My oncologist never mentioned it. I was just told that it's common and nobody can really say when it'll come or go. Interesting! Thank you! I'll definitely bring this up at my next appointment.
@BinghamtonDave you're right. Cheating is probably not the right word. I complained so much about not having enough accommodations or assistance during treatment and now here I am questioning this accommodations! SMH I just never wanted to use cancer as a crutch. Well when you put it like that! Lol
@"Dillon A. Wright" I will definitely be PM you once I get my appointment scheduled.
Thanks again everyone!
Good luck!!
I had have Narcolepsy. I didn't have any accommodations for the LSAT, as I had just been diagnosed. However, I'm in law school now, and I got my paperwork in place the 2nd week of school. I have a few key accommodations, but the big one to me is the extra time for exams. I didn't want that accommodation at first. When I met with the disability office, she asked me what I thought I needed for support, and I told her that I was mostly concerned with absences and tardiness (two of the biggest problems narcoleptics have) and I wanted some accommodation to the attendance policy. She recommended extra time for testing and I quickly rebuked it. I've always been a high performer, and I didn't feel right about using that help. BUT, she talked to me into it, by saying, "look, you might feel fine today, but you don't know how you'll feel on test day. what if you over sleep? what if you were up all night?" She made a good argument, and I figured it better to be safe than sorry. VERY quickly I realized that she was right. Law school is insanely cognitively demanding. All day. every day. I catch myself, a little sleepy, zoning out etc. When I read or study, depending on how I feel that day, I need more breaks, and to really MAKE myself do it, because the intensity level is so high, and my narcolepsy kicks in. Narcolepsy is often stress induced. Isn't that ironic? Go to law school: the most stressful thing ever ever ever. Stress exacerbates Narcolepsy so I am so tired that I feel like someone drugged me. Thus, I MUST take a nap. Napping takes up time I should be reading or studying, leaving me a lot of work to do, and less time to do it. Which stresses me out. And the cycle starts again.....
I say all this to say, I am so happy I sucked it up and put the accommodations in place. I know I have the brain power, IQ, cognitive ability, motivation, etc etc to do this. But, Narcolepsy seriously gets in the way, in a way I cannot control. Depending on the day, I might need a little more time to get through these marathon exams because my brain keeps telling itself that stress means sleep when I'm trying to get work done, and I have to fight it every step of the way.
I say all this to say: if you plan to go to law school, I promise you that chemo brain is going to make your life harder. You'll have to work harder and longer than others to learn the same material. You might not be able to spit out an eloquent and well formed response to the professor when cold-called in class. You might have to read slower to make sure you're getting exactly what's on the pages. DO NOT DO NOT DO NOT try to do this on your own. Get the accommodations in place. Maybe it will all go swimmingly and you'll end up not needing them and you can waive them (you have the right to do this). But, for your protection, PUT THEM IN PLACE. I don't know a lot about chemo brain, but from the little you are describing, if things don't improve, and you're just trying to brave it on your own, without help, you won't make it. Law school is freakin hard dude. I had a career before this, and I say every day that my full time job and career was easier than law school.
BTW - my previous career was in education. I worked as a middle school math teacher for 6.5 years, and I cannot tell you the number of meetings I was a part of, trying to formulate a plan for a student who needed assistance. Here are some things you might consider, just in case you are totally knew to this world:
-extra time on exams
-professor will give student at least 3 minute warning before requiring him to answer out loud (to -give the student time to formulate his thoughts) ***this would look something like the teacher what say, "Ok, XXXX, you're next, so get ready! blah blah blah blahblah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah. Ok, XXXXX, so tell me what you know about....."
-student will be provided all textbooks in e-text/pdf format (this is so you can use a phone or laptop etc to have it read to you. It might seem silly, but if you mix up words or letters or whatever sometimes, this could prevent that, because you would be LISTENING to your cases, rather than reading them - although you could follow along and take notes. In fact, this is recommended.)
-student may regularly visit professor office hours to fill gaps/holes in notes that occurred due to disability
Do a google search for IEP accommodations for cognitive speed/impairment/delay (i'm not sure which would be best. You want one that conveys that you are cognitively OK, but that things works slowly sometimes, or that it messes up sometimes. Cognitive issues can often mean low IQ in the world of special education, so be careful about what you are reading.)
I hope some of this helps. I'm sorry for the long response, but I'm super passionate about this, and my previous career actually makes me well informed to give meaningful advice. Pair that with the fact that I'm a 1L right now, literally sitting in the law library as I type, and I thought I could maybe offer you something of use to your situation.
Good luck!!!
@shainabarber wow! Thx for your advice! It's good hearing from someone in my situation because I totally feel the same way! I never knew that those types of accommodations were available either in law school. Good to know! I haven't had any classes since I started chemo so getting accommodations for anything has never been an issue but I was wondering how things would go once I'm enrolled. I'm super stoked about all the info I'm getting from you guys! Thx again!
First off, congratulations! I don't know you, but I truly am happy that you beat cancer.
Second, if you feel that accommodations would benefit you, seek them out! Don't let pride or over-humility be the reason why you underperform.
There's a reason why accommodations exist. They're there to even the playing field. You're only cheating yourself if you don't seek accommodations, knowing that you need them.
@MrSamIam thank you! You're so right! I actually withdrew today so that I can get everything together to submit for the accommodations. Unfortunately I was too late to apply for today but I will be ready for June!
Here's a pic of what I was discussing above. This happened a few days ago and I remembered to snap a pic. I'm also going to submit it to LSAC, if allowed, with everything else required.
Admin edit: Link removed. Please blurr out LSAT questions.
Notice what I did with the 2nd set of variables? Luckily I was able to catch it before hitting the first question this time! I should've written PLS not PST. Would've been a huge time sink to go through AC A-E only to realize my gameboard is wrong! It's happened before! I'm so glad I finally know what it is. Still working on getting my docs signed but I'm confident I'll have it all submitted by mid-end of April.
Had to remove the picture, sorry. Don't share full LSAT questions.
@"Dillon A. Wright" oh crap! Didn't even think about that. My bad!