I realize this sounds silly, but please understand I have a lot of anxiety that was 100% cultivated through academia. I currently have a full-time job that I handle perfectly well, but as soon as any kind of scores come into the picture, I shut down. In college, I mostly got around this by taking classes that were very heavy on research papers and essays, which I stress over less because I know I have time to ponder, take breaks, revise, etc, but timed tests... not so much.
Saturday I was supposed to take my first prep test, which I already delayed because I felt like I wasn't prepared enough to do so a week ago. Then — surprise, surprise — didn't feel ready on Saturday, either. So, I studied from the moment I got up, straight through lunch, straight through dinner, until it was 10:00pm and I realized I just had to bite the bullet. Of course, by this time I was exhausted, hungry, stressed, angry at the mere existence of the LSAT..... and (though I don't know my score yet because I am currently wrapping up the blind review) I am sure that I performed even worse than when I took the initial practice test, before the course began.
I know that I created a horrible situation for myself, but even with that awareness, I am also aware that I am very likely to do it again. I just focus so much on being 100% prepared and put so much pressure on myself to do well, that I end up completely sabotaging myself. And even when I try to take breaks, I just end up feeling guilty and stressed over the fact that I'm not studying. At this point, I'm honestly getting close to burning out.
If anyone has been kind enough to read this far — I would really appreciate some encouragement, shared experiences, or any tips you might have in terms of calming nerves, accepting failure, or just plunging into the prep tests, without putting an enormous amount of weight on doing so. And even if you don't feel like commenting, thanks for taking the time to read this mess, and I wish you the best of luck with the LSAT!